Merry ~  cheerful and lively. Merry Christmas...all is merry and bright...it's the most wonderful time of the year...Christmas isn't a season it's a feeling... What if your reality during this season doesn't match all these ideas and sayings? For many people this is a hard season mentally and emotionally. How can we fight for joy and focus on Jesus despite how we "feel"? How do these emotional and mental struggles refine us and make us more like Christ? I am going to share a little bit about my own struggle here in an effort to show that you are not alone, how I have to fight for joy, and to help us all focus and rely on Jesus - the reason for this joyful season. I am thankful you can't see my thoughts on my worst days. They bounce all over the place. One minute I am thinking about all my failures, the next I am thinking about all I need to be doing, then the next I am trying to remind myself of the truths from God's word, and then I start to worry ab